Unwritten

lol. couldnt think of anything to put up there really since today's post is going to b a delightful combination of crappy and well...heheh, not so crappy....yeah..i just looove that song....lol, the travis barker remix especially...just brilliant...

-why is it that however much u try to convince yourself that u can and will somehow push through, despite all the pain u've been through,u find yourself sinking even deeper??

-why is it that when sometimes things are going great for you, you still punch the wall every morning, screaming in frustration because you suddenly become aware that your blessed present was brought upon by your painful, shameless past??


-why is it that you find yourself being so cruel to yourself and the people around you consciously but not deliberately??

-why is it that when you look for silver key, you find a gold one instead, and you're still not happy??

- why is it that sometimes we feel that the WHOLE WORLD HAS BECOME A BITCH and we appear to be the only compassionate and sane beings left on earth when in reality, it is the other way around??

WHY???

you know what, if you're going to keep asking yourself these questions every single day knowing that the answers aint just gonna jump out from behind the door and announce that they've arrived, u are gonna someday end up one miserable and lonesome sucker.

seriously.

i just realised that today as i was talking to sashvin. I am going through some personal issues at the moment and i poured it all out to him. He's a great person i must say. He was able to make me wake up and face reality just like that. And the answer he gave me was able to answer all the questions above. He's right, people become miserable because they take things for granted.

yeah yeah i know what you're thinking. Ive heard that one before. But seriously, think about it. A person who sees the world as it is and dosent stop to contemplate the what ifs of life would..

-be happy that god has given him the strengh to at least push through and move on with their lives.

-be thankful that her present is indeed blessed and not care two hoots about her past as its godamn over anyway.

-take the time to apologise and caution himself not to make the same mistake by hurting anyone else in future instead of merely beating himself up for words and actions that cannot be taken back.

-yell with joy even if she found a bronze key because after all, all keys perform the same function at the end of the day.

-feel comforted that whoever the bitch is in reality, there still are people out there who care and look out for one another, regardless of the circumstances.

you know, its easy to say one thing, and even easier to promise yourself that you will do it or it will happen.

but seriously, its horribly difficult to stay happy while you're doing it. Thats the hard part about life.

Maybe we should all take sashvin's simple answer seriously. Maybe then we'll all be happier.

you know, i think im beginning to feel just that.